I've been dreaming dead mothers. Night after night
I lay my head down and, instead of sleeping, dream
a woman being killed. The death is always sudden.
Either disease - a sudden onset, a quick decline - or murder
at the hands of bandits. There's no other kind of violence,
no rape or anything. Just the death of someone's mother
and then grieving.
The first night it was my boyfriend's mother. I don't
have a boyfriend, but his mother got sick of cancer
suddenly, one night, and he called me at four in the morning
to say, "Kyla, my mother's dying." And I said, "What?
How?" the way my mother says What?! when she hears bad news,
with ind
dictionary and trip to the sea by milpalabras, literature
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dictionary and trip to the sea
The sink is clogged with asterixes -
fool, you're supposed to rinse the kettle
before just sloshing the whole damn
pale-blue mess down.
The dishes are corroded with semicolons,
the apostrophes are spilling from
the chipped, pastel mugs.
It's all going to get caught in the filter,
anyway, he yells, the flicking of his
tin lighter like typewriter keys down the hall.
The towels are gasping, wincing,
with their wrinkled terry-cloth tongues;
when I sink into the scummy tub
for a soak later, they'll still be
whispering about his hullabulloo.
Someone with slow, accented words
is muttering about cocaine
on the radio - scrathy,
We don't have time for this, love.
These days melt away over ankles and throats
like warm milk; over shoulders and mouths
to pool in the hollows of our bodies.
Soon, the days will be bright again; bursting
with springshine and suntime, filling the expectant cups
of our hands to spill over into our emptinesses;
grass will unfurl, breaking the soil with sharp
photosynthetic spines, lapping at the air with verdant
tongues, like fog scattering against city parks.
Summer will be quick on its heels, heavy-handed with a toothy
grin, leering into the faces of every creature it embraces, leaning closely to
mouth searingly at the back of th
Monologue: People and Walls by wildoats, literature
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Monologue: People and Walls
(At rise: Jason is in car with four friends, hotboxing. His speech patterns are erratic as he talks.)
JASON: I'm fine, I'm fine, shut the hell up and I'm fine. Give me a minute and everything will stop pulsing. Ah-haaa, hell. Shit. (Pause.) Uh, is the heat natural? I've never done this before. The heat is natural? (Pause.) I feel like a damn power source. Is the pulsing natural? (Pause.) The pulsing is natural. The heat and the pulsing are natural. You know what it's like? Every three seconds I don't exist again, I forget what I'm made of. Then it's like, somewhere inside me, this explosion, like Eden…it's too much power for
Strangest fog, this illness.
Sylvia talked of tulips and white hospitals
when I was seventeen, and I thought,
"This is morose. This is what maudlin
is meant to mean. What strange
self-indulgence." And now,
I see the inside, or I saw it, once.
It's when the eyes recede into the caverns
of the mind, like cupping your hands
at your temples, except it's bone and skin,
in walls around you and the bright at the end
of the tunnel is really very white.
Strangest fog.
Walk like your body
is not your all.
Talk like a tin can kicked
down the road to sandstone,
soapstone lives you've lived, built
from the matter of your mind,
abrasive,
A breath sits down in me.
The woman across has breathed it,
she is sighing. A struggle is over.
"You have always been love,
through waking dreams and walking
sleeps" - but I cannot speak.
I cannot ever speak
or too many words will go down
our throats and we will choke. Words walking
the heath in my head. But I no longer breathe
wishes. There has always been love,
but it has sat down and my work is over.
What is left is nothing large, nothing overtly
valuable. Just a wish that God would speak;
and the repetitive memory of my head, down
on the floor in prayer - "Let it be a kind of love."
I'll be saying it forever. As for the